First, I would like to take a moment and cry.
There, I did.
I cried because I can’t fit into any of my clothes. This is a result of my new position with Mothers Against Drunk Driving, one that I consider my dream job. I have the pleasure of working from home helping people who have been victims of DUI-related crimes and offer them much needed emotional support. My previous job entailed the same line of work, however it was in a hospital setting where I was able to do a lot of walking. My new job, however, requires only the incredibly difficult effort of lifting myself off the couch, and walking six feet to my home office. I know, it is really intense work. It also requires that I sit in yoga pants in the comfort of my home. Although I love my new job, I am no longer able to fit into any of my clothes now and my yoga pants have completely oppressed me.
How did this happen? I asked myself this for several weeks. After all, I didn’t change my diet and I continued to take advantage of fitness opportunities at the Hendricks Regional Health YMCA. I eat healthy too. I didn’t understand. But “weight”! Ah ha! I know what it is now! I am taking in more calories than I am burning. After all, it doesn’t matter how healthy you eat, if you are taking in more calories than you are burning, weight gain is inevitable. And after three years of maintaining a healthy weight, weight gain has struck me once again.
Oddly, however my self-esteem is still high. It is important to love yourself, no matter your size. One's “self” is the only soul that is guaranteed to be with them their entire life, so one must love it. But weight gain is not about looks or vanity to me. It’s about health. In a society where heart disease is the number one killer of women, I know I need to take action and get my weight under control. I was 170 pounds a year ago and 160 pounds the year prior to that. Now the number you ask? 186.
That is okay, I got this. It’s going to take will power and support, but I will get back to my 160 range. How? It is going to be difficult however. I need to be really mindful of how many calories I am taking in, as well as staying active. It will be about dedication, changes and effort. I know how to eat healthy, I know how to exercise, and I know what to do. I just need to do it.
Week 1 ... Watch out, here I come!
Member of the Hendricks Regional Health YMCA Advisory Board
Lael is a 33-year-young wife and mother of two currently living in Brownsburg, Indiana. She is a proud volunteer and member of the YMCA, and firmly believes in the organization's mission.
Lael is a social worker employed as a Victim Services Specialist for Mothers Against Drunk Driving. Additionally, she is a sociology graduate stuent at Indiana University School of Liberal Arts. Lael also is a member of the National Association of Social Workers, and currently serves on the Indiana Chapter's public policy committee.
When she is not being a wife, mother, social worker, volunteer and student, she enjoys exercising, gardening, going on nature walks, talking on the phone, and has recently taken up cycling for a hobby. We are thriled to have Lael as a guest blogger as she chronicles her journey to better health!